Oars freed from their holds long ago Lying face up on the floor of my vessel I marvel at the stars And feel my heart overflow, further down the river.

In two week's time my life have been flipped upside down, this time for the good.....

side note: I think incubus has taken the place of "all time favorite band". I dont think I have ever had one of those, and it feels funny.

I have never been so at peace with who I am and the decisions I am making. I have finally begun to realize that everything will happen in the perfect timing, and even though it is unfortunate that I can't predict that timing, it's comforting knowing that it exists.

I'm having hard time learning patience.

I had lost the value of just sitting and listening. The simple acts of just being at peace and being still is so crucial to holding on to ones sanity. Through thees meditative states great revelation has emerged. It's so hard to explain but i find comfort in not caring and just leaving it up to Jehova.

I love how the bible refers to God in so many different ways. Jehova-Jireh (the God that provides), Jehova- Nissi (the God that comforts), Jehova- Shammah ( the God that is here), Jehova- rapha (the God that heals), and my favorite Jehova- shalom (the God that is peace). I can't comprehend how one being can be all of thees things, but thats what captivates me about God.

I am an extremely logical person and in reality God is not very logical (scientifically speaking). But I love the unknown, it always has fascinated me. I also love the risk I take of being wrong. I don't think people realize that being a christian is the biggest gamble in the history of the world.

Story time:
I was walking downtown a few nights ago after going to SAK and I witnessed a man yelling at the crowd of "rock and rollers" that they were going to burn in a " lake of fire". As they screamed incredibly hurtful things to thees people that may or may not know anything about God it immediately pissed me off. As I walked closer to confront this guy, I witnessed a leader at a local church standing in font of the man silently with a sign apologizing for this mans actions. The sign also went on to tell the crowd that if Jesus were here he would love and comfort them, as well as tell the man that was screaming what was wrong with his methods. This silent disciple was God's heart...


Just something to think about.