You grow, you roar Although disguised I know you.....You'll learn to know.

This band produces some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard.

Today is Sunday and I have to work. Its odd because I feel so out of place not being in church, just last month I would take my Sundays off and sleep in, not really worrying about church. I have seen the value in getting fed, I also have learned that this can not be something that happens only on Sundays.

I like starting over.

I am getting such a different perspective on Christianity, the reason I say I live my life. I grew up in church and I never really had a value for God because of that reason. I feel like in my case because he was just something that was there and things were fine there really was no reason to step out of my comfort zone to experience something more.

A few nights ago I was watching one of my discipleship kids worship... as I observed I wished for that back. I wished for that passion and that reckless abandonment of all I know to cry out to God. It was very inspiring....

It is so funny to me to look at why I started this blog and to slowly see the ups and downs of my life since last September. I still refuse to believe that anyone reads this, I guess it is why I poure my heart out into whatever the subject may be.

I just received a job from Burton snowboards... to anyone else that's not a big deal, to me I have wanted to work for them since I was in 9th grade. even though I am working as an inventory specialist at the local store i feel like there is more to come from this very small opportunity. Knowing that they have stores in NYC, LA, Boston,Tokyo, Chicago, and Burlington makes me incredibly excited for advancement opportunities. The reason I have mentioned this is to take note in the power of your words and positivity. When I was 14 I decided I wanted to be an engineer to go and design snowboards for Burton, After I had realized I have no chance due to all of the math involved I walked away from that dream. 3 years later they open a store in Orlando Florida, where we never see a single flake of snow......

To me that is God.

One love,
Landen

Oars freed from their holds long ago Lying face up on the floor of my vessel I marvel at the stars And feel my heart overflow, further down the river.

In two week's time my life have been flipped upside down, this time for the good.....

side note: I think incubus has taken the place of "all time favorite band". I dont think I have ever had one of those, and it feels funny.

I have never been so at peace with who I am and the decisions I am making. I have finally begun to realize that everything will happen in the perfect timing, and even though it is unfortunate that I can't predict that timing, it's comforting knowing that it exists.

I'm having hard time learning patience.

I had lost the value of just sitting and listening. The simple acts of just being at peace and being still is so crucial to holding on to ones sanity. Through thees meditative states great revelation has emerged. It's so hard to explain but i find comfort in not caring and just leaving it up to Jehova.

I love how the bible refers to God in so many different ways. Jehova-Jireh (the God that provides), Jehova- Nissi (the God that comforts), Jehova- Shammah ( the God that is here), Jehova- rapha (the God that heals), and my favorite Jehova- shalom (the God that is peace). I can't comprehend how one being can be all of thees things, but thats what captivates me about God.

I am an extremely logical person and in reality God is not very logical (scientifically speaking). But I love the unknown, it always has fascinated me. I also love the risk I take of being wrong. I don't think people realize that being a christian is the biggest gamble in the history of the world.

Story time:
I was walking downtown a few nights ago after going to SAK and I witnessed a man yelling at the crowd of "rock and rollers" that they were going to burn in a " lake of fire". As they screamed incredibly hurtful things to thees people that may or may not know anything about God it immediately pissed me off. As I walked closer to confront this guy, I witnessed a leader at a local church standing in font of the man silently with a sign apologizing for this mans actions. The sign also went on to tell the crowd that if Jesus were here he would love and comfort them, as well as tell the man that was screaming what was wrong with his methods. This silent disciple was God's heart...


Just something to think about.