We laugh in the face of love Cause nobody's really there, Nobody's real.....

It's been 3 months since my last blog. it really doesn't seem like it's been that long

It's not that i dont have anything to say, I just haven't found time.

Its funny because the times when I have more to say than ever i have no time to say it.

So much has happened in the past 3 months...

My faith was tested, not just my faith in God but my faith in humanity. Over the past month or so my family has been the victim to the most hateful and greedy acts I have ever wittnessed. I guess it comes as a real shock because I tend to be such an optimist at heart.

It's funny how optimism can have negative reactions. Often optimism covers the flaws of an individual that may make them dangerous to others. I'm realizing how optimism can be extremely dangerous.

even with all the terrible things happening to my family, alot of good things have been coming my way and even to the people around me. I recently got full time at work, I have been exceeding my selling goals, and everyone of my coworkers has been doing amazing in the store. Im just really digging life right now.

I guess right now I just have so much to say its hard to put into words, hopefully i will be able to jot them down and get this creativity ball rolling again.

keep your head up,
Landen

Will I ever get to where I'm going? If I do will I know when I'm there? If the wind blew me in the right direction, Yeah Would I even care?

So Instead of a list of useless new years resolutions I have decided to make a list of things I want to do before I die. I am in the process of writing 25 things I want to do. then as a group me and my friends will put them all together and see what things can be crossed out.

so far from mine it's.....

1. learn to blow glass
2. see Spain
3. read the entire bible
4. go to south America for a summer to snowboard
5. hang out with someone famous
6. get scuba certified
7. hike a portion of the Appalachian trail
8. sky dive

It is a lot harder to make one of thees lists than you would think. I find myself asking if the action is obtainable or not, it kind of sucks.

As much as I love winter I am kind of looking forward to spring. This winter has been very cold in every way possibly. For some reason it has just been a tundra of loneliness or despair for everyone I know. It's so weird how thees things work.

I feel like spring will be great. I have a lot of amazing things planned for the month of march along with my birthday. I really think that this spring I will see a lot of new life and new relationships.

Hey maybe even a cure to this loneliness will come about.


stay warm

When we come down we'll be dreamin safe and sound.

I don't know what it is but I just had an extreme sense of peace just flow over me. Everthing is falling into place.

I set out to have a grand adventure on this new years eve, but that didnt work out. So now as I sit here with my best friend listening quietly to piano tracks, I feel that peace just surround me and soak in every fiber of my being.

I don't care about adventures or crazy partying, getting a midnight kiss, being lonely for the holidays, working at 9 in the morning, or making resolutions on this years end, I care about being with my best friends and feeling the sense of accomplishment.

My life has been transformed in the time of a year.

I look back on last year and how I couldn't wait for this year to end. I can without a doubt say that 2008 was the worst year I have had out of thees 18. thats another story though.

One thing I can say is that this year has quite possibly been the best, and for no specific reason. even though last year my life was torn apart, this year it has slowly been restored. With the restoration I feel that something crazy is coming next year. I feel like over the past year I have been preparing for something great and exciting. Hopefully I won't be let down.

Stay tuned.

I am a moth who just wants to share your light I'm just an insect trying to get out of the night I am still with you because there are no others

It's Christmas eve, the second one I've been through single. There is something about having a sweetheart on the greatest day of the year, it just enhances it. I can't wait for this game that little boys and girls play with each other to end. I just want a girl that stands up for her beliefs and is confident, someone that can encourage me as much as I can support her. Someone who is flawed, someone who has made a difference, someone that respects me.

It also sucks that I have never had a girl that lived within 30 minutes of my house.

Really all I want to do is spoil someone.... any takers?

Seriously, I laugh at what my generation calls true love. I can't wait to experience it, because I know what I once had was not true. I remember a new years resolution I had, It was to find a girl that met a few of those criteria. Unfortunately no luck yet, But hey I still have a week.


Wow this just turned into a complaining session. That is the beauty of a blog that not many people read, I can say what I want.

on a different note....
As great as the Christmas season is, it still isn't as great as it was when I was a child.

I never believed in santa clause, but I remember staying up all night waiting for my parents to wake up to tear through the presents. Now I go to sleep at midnight hoping to get a few extra hours of sleep than I would on any other day. I guess that is what happens as you grow older, the things that once made your heart jump now just seem mediocre.

Don't get me wrong Christmas is still the best time of year in my opinion, but I see what this celebration of my saviors birth truly has become...

It's an excuse to be greedy and irresponsible with your money.

I can really appreciate my parents doing a modest Christmas every year. It really has given me the right perspective on this season. I feel my priorities this entire month are different than everyone else. For me it's about sweet fellowship with my friends and family.

Hopefully The last week in this year will be awesome, who knows maybe I will fulfill that new years resolution. I mean I did accomplish all the other ones. Even if I don't, I am very satisfied with this past years and it's products. I hope everyone feels the same

Merry christmas

What if I sold everything I own And ran away from everyone I know could I make another place my home?

I have started to realize how young I really am. Even though by the laws standards I am a man, there is still so much for me to learn. I think about how at my age my parents were married. That is mind blowing, I cant imagine having that much responsibility at this time in my life.

I blame society.

Isn't that funny how people get so frustrated with society and the way things are? Just think about the world we live in today and how much our culture has changed over the past 30 years. It is pretty ridiculous. I love when I get frustrated with a text message, or when my internet isnt quite as fast as i would like it to be. We need to take a step back and just look at this situation......

just sayin.

Man this has been a very eventful week, a lot of good and a lot of bad.

So let us see what happens in the end, because thats the only part that matters, right?

something else to think about