I am a moth who just wants to share your light I'm just an insect trying to get out of the night I am still with you because there are no others

It's Christmas eve, the second one I've been through single. There is something about having a sweetheart on the greatest day of the year, it just enhances it. I can't wait for this game that little boys and girls play with each other to end. I just want a girl that stands up for her beliefs and is confident, someone that can encourage me as much as I can support her. Someone who is flawed, someone who has made a difference, someone that respects me.

It also sucks that I have never had a girl that lived within 30 minutes of my house.

Really all I want to do is spoil someone.... any takers?

Seriously, I laugh at what my generation calls true love. I can't wait to experience it, because I know what I once had was not true. I remember a new years resolution I had, It was to find a girl that met a few of those criteria. Unfortunately no luck yet, But hey I still have a week.


Wow this just turned into a complaining session. That is the beauty of a blog that not many people read, I can say what I want.

on a different note....
As great as the Christmas season is, it still isn't as great as it was when I was a child.

I never believed in santa clause, but I remember staying up all night waiting for my parents to wake up to tear through the presents. Now I go to sleep at midnight hoping to get a few extra hours of sleep than I would on any other day. I guess that is what happens as you grow older, the things that once made your heart jump now just seem mediocre.

Don't get me wrong Christmas is still the best time of year in my opinion, but I see what this celebration of my saviors birth truly has become...

It's an excuse to be greedy and irresponsible with your money.

I can really appreciate my parents doing a modest Christmas every year. It really has given me the right perspective on this season. I feel my priorities this entire month are different than everyone else. For me it's about sweet fellowship with my friends and family.

Hopefully The last week in this year will be awesome, who knows maybe I will fulfill that new years resolution. I mean I did accomplish all the other ones. Even if I don't, I am very satisfied with this past years and it's products. I hope everyone feels the same

Merry christmas